I feel like I don’t deserve to be depressed. There are so many people with worse situations than me. I’ve never stayed up all night crying, I don’t cut myself, my family loves me, and I’m not being bullied.
I don’t feel depressed all the time. Though there are many more bad days than good, a few days I feel almost normal, like today. I’ll laugh with my friends and feel okay, and then I feel guilty. I’m not supposed to be capable of being happy. I feel worthless on my bad days and guilty on my good days. I don’t know why. This leads to more guilt, since I should be happy that I’m okay at the moment and not suffering.
Depression is supposed to be horribly crippling ALL of the days. Maybe I’m just a lazy, spoiled person feeling “depressed” while others are being abused and cutting their arms.
Depression actually isn’t a constant thing, as in some days you may feel happy. I’m the same. I have some ideas that might help you. I can’t stop your depression but these methods might stop you from feeling guilty whenever you’re happy. Basically, when you feel alright just don’t let yourself think about why you aren’t depressed. As soon as you start questioning your right to be happy or depressed just look at anything and start describing it in your head. For example, if you’re outside then you might see a tree so start describing the tree in your head. Brown bark, green leaves, tall, swaying branches etc. That should make you think about something else. I hope you feel better.
don’t feel that way at all. I totally agree i suffer from depression also and i constantly feel like it is a “luxurious problem” yet you have to remember perception is reality. How you feel is really how you feel. rather than focus on your guilt expect your sad, and try to focus on improving. don’t let the guilt bring you down!